What happened when I met my online boyfriend for the first time.

5th December 4

Our second meeting, when I went to him.


Meeting your partner for the first time is nerve-wracking for anybody, but for me – meeting my boyfriend for the first time after already having been dating for a year – was something else entirely.

I started talking to my boyfriend online three years ago. We became friends pretty much instantly, and we’ve spoken every day since then. It didn’t take long before I realised that I was starting to have feelings for him. There was only one problem – he lived 10, 236 miles away.

Before three years ago, a long-distance relationship was something I’d never really considered, never mind one that started online. Everything that I’d ever heard about online relationships left me feeling generally quite sceptical. We’ve all been told about the dangers of talking to people online – creepy old men, fake profiles, catfishing – but what about when you know that the person on the other end of the screen is who they say they are? Can a relationship that starts online work in real life?

After the initial happiness, these thoughts were all that went through my mind when he asked me to be his girlfriend. Because as much as I wanted to say yes, I had no idea how an online relationship was going to work, especially being as far away as we were. So I did what any reasonable girl would do – I told him I needed a few days to think about it.

Two days later – after very little deliberation – I said yes.

Over a year later, I was standing at the airport waiting to meet him for the first time. Our first year together was good – although slightly rocky – and the build up to him coming to visit was the most excited I’ve ever been in my life. And although those around me were concerned – what if we didn’t get along in real life, what if we weren’t attracted to each other, what if somehow he wasn’t who he said he was after all – we knew that it would be amazing.

With my family patiently waiting in the cafe behind me (just in case), I stood at the barrier waiting to see the face that had appeared next to so many messages. And then the thought crossed my mind – what if I didn’t recognise him? Despite all the snapchats and exchanged picture messages, the countless hours spent sat on Skype together, was there a chance that when it came to real life, I wouldn’t recognise the face I’d spent so many hours memorising?

After what felt like hours –  although 40 minutes is probably more accurate – this was starting to seem likely. Every possible thought ran through my mind. Maybe he hadn’t gotten on the plane after all, or maybe he was lost. Maybe he’d already walked past and I hadn’t seen him, or maybe I was at the wrong gate.

But before any more extreme thoughts could emerge – images of him being detained in airport security or the plane exploding – I saw a hand raised in a nervous wave and a familiar grinning face.

I felt like I was going to pass out with nervousness, but as he came towards me and puts his arms around me in what was our first hug, I was struck by how right it felt. My heart slowed and the shaking of my hands that had somehow escaped my notice subsided.

“Long time no see,” he whispered, and I laughed, relieved. Everything was exactly the way I’d imagined – albeit I was significantly more nervous.

I waited for him to walk round to the open section of the barrier, where I grabbed his hand and prepared myself to introduce my boyfriend to my parents after having only just met him myself seconds earlier.

And although the next month and a half passed by quickly, they were even better than either of us had anticipated. Our connection was even stronger in person, and only reaffirmed our commitment to each other.

We’re both aware that we’re extremely lucky, and that perhaps our situation may be rarer than we think, but after nearly three years together and another trip planned in just two months, I think it’s safe to say that it worked out.


Long Distance Relationship FAQ


1. Is it hard?

If there’s one thing that anyone in a long-distance relationship can tell you, it’s that it’s hard. Being apart from anyone that you love for a prolonged period of time – whether they’re a family member, a friend or your significant other – is difficult. And although there’s an ever-growing amount of technology available to make long-distance relationships easier and create more communication, it’s never going to be easy.
And this applies whether you’ve met the person that you’re in a long-distance relationship with or not. If you have, then your time spent apart is spent missing them significantly, which is always hard. But if you haven’t, and meeting in person is something that you’re working up to, time spent apart is still just as hard. You’re left wondering whether or not the connection in person will be the same, and whether you’ll discover things about each other that you haven’t online – it’s uncharted territory.
And it’s not just the physical side of things that are missing, but emotional as well. There are some conversations that you’d just prefer to have in person, and sometimes you would just like to share a day out together or go out for dinner.
There are so many different aspects that make a long-distance relationship difficult, but this doesn’t impact your feelings for that person.

2. Why not just go for someone who lives closer?

This gets asked a lot, and I think the best answer that I can give is that – as with any relationship – your partner is the person that you love, and you can’t change that. It’s not just a simple case of choosing not to feel that way about them anymore, and picking someone who lives around the corner instead. You can’t choose who you love, and long-distance relationships are no different in that respect. Yes, the circumstances may be unusual and it has to be considered with a lot of serious thought, but even if you don’t end up in a relationship, you can’t change your love for that person.
And most people, even if they could choose to love someone who lived closer, probably wouldn’t choose to, as they’re thoroughly committed to their partner, and long-distance relationships can often teach you a lot not just about another culture, but relationships as a whole.

3. How do you know they haven’t cheated on you by now?

Cheating is one aspect of a long-distance relationship that is no different to any other. While, yes, if a long-distance partner did cheat, they would perhaps be less likely to be found out, people are no more likely to cheat in a long distance relationship. There is no evidence to suggest that those in long-distance relationships are more likely to cheat, other than pure speculation.
And as with any other relationship – there has to be trust. It doesn’t matter if your partner is 1 mile away or 10,000, if you don’t trust them then already you’re lacking the most basic foundation for any relationship.

4. But…how does it work?

The same as any other relationship, just without the physical stuff. A long-distance relationship relies a lot more on social media and video chat services such as Skype and ooVoo. Sure, long-distance couples may not be able to see each other face-to-face and go on dates, but the general idea is the same: two people are in love, and they decide they want to commit to that and try to make it work. It’s no different to any other relationship in that respect.

5. What if they’re a catfish? (of course this doesn’t apply to long-distance couples that have already met in person)

From a very young age, we’re all taught that talking to strangers on the internet is bad. You never know who’s behind an avatar, especially as it’s becoming increasingly easier for people to create fake profiles online. But as the risk of being ‘catfished’ increases, as does the awareness of young people. There’s a very basic checklist that can be referred to in these situations that will often determine whether or not somebody is portraying a fake identity online:

  • Do they have a suspiciously small/large number of friends and/or followers?
  • Do the majority of their pictures look too professional?
  • Or is there a significant lack of pictures?
  • Are they willing to talk to you on the phone?
  • Are they willing to video chat with you and show their face?
  • Will they send you a picture of their face – maybe with a specific request?

The answers to these questions make it relatively easy these days to identify a catfish – however, many people unfortunately are still manipulated by such people.

6. You know it won’t last, right?

According to longdistancerelationshipstatistics.com (which, admittedly sounds like a biased source, but was the only one I could find with the statistic I needed), on average, 60% of long-distance relationships do not result in a break-up. However, whether you believe this or not, a long-distance couple is no more guaranteed to break up than any other couple. Couples break up all the time, for various reasons, and with long-distance couples, there can be many more reasons for them breaking up than distance.

Gift ideas for a long-distance relationship

With Valentine’s Day coming up, it can be difficult looking for gifts for the person you love. And when that person lives far away, it opens up a whole other abundance of problems – what if it’s too big or too heavy to send? Are these classed as a prohibited item? What if this doesn’t fit them?

After nearly three years in a long-distance relationship and with plenty of Pinterest boards, previously sent and received presents and potential future ideas, I decided to share some of my ideas with you. So I have compiled a list of either presents that me and my boyfriend have sent each other, or ideas that I myself have come up with or like the sound of.



I bought these Game of Thrones inspired keyrings for me and my boyfriend, however, Etsy is useful for long-distance relationship keyrings.

Matching keyrings

This idea is incredibly simple, but can be really sweet if done right. Perhaps you could find matching keyrings that hold some significance to the two of you, such as a quote that means something to your relationship, or with your names or cities on them. This makes what can sometimes be a bit of an ordinary gift into something more personal and meaningful.

A scrapbook

For a couple that spends a lot of time apart, a scrapbook is a perfect reminder of your time spent together and can feel a lot more satisfying than just flicking through pictures on your phone, as you can see the amount of effort that your significant other has put into it. And for the person making it, it can serve as an enjoyable project that can take your mind off the distance and allow you to reflect on some of your best memories.

However, if you and your significant other have not met yet, you don’t necessarily have to rule this out as a potential gift. Instead of filling the scrapbook with your pictures together, perhaps you could fill it with places that you want to go together, or hobbies that you share. You could also maybe combine individual pictures of the two of you, to see what it will be like when you do finally meet.

A book of things that you love about them 


Can also be bought on Amazon.


Can be bought on Knock Knock’s website, as well as Amazon.

If you wanted to make a more personal gift, then this idea would be great. You could either buy a blank notebook and fill it will things that you love about the other person, or if you wanted a little prompting you could buy a book that gives you topics and questions to answer about your significant other.

Both these ideas can be equally as fun and will show the other person their lovable qualities.

Matching pillowcases

Now this may sound cliche, but can actually be sweet when it’s done right. Rather than buying the terrifying “boyfriend pillow” that no doubt every person in a long-distance relationship has had suggested to them at some point, perhaps you could find two pillowcases that when put together, make a picture? That way you will each have one half of the picture and something that will remind you of the other person.

Both pillowcases seen here, and others, can be purchased from BOLDLOFT’s Etsy page.



I bought these adorable prints from MissSDesigns on Etsy.

Matching pictures

Similarly to the last suggestion, matching drawings or pictures that when put together make a whole picture can also be a nice gift idea. Having something that can be completed when put together makes you look forward to when you and your significant other will be reunited, whilst also giving the two of you something to share.

A message in a bottle 

These can be purchased online from multiple sites, and are an affordable gift that is easily sendable through the post. You can write a heartfelt message for your significant other on a piece of paper, which is then sealed in beautifully crafted bottle ready for them to open whenever they need to read your words.

And if you’re feeling particularly creative, you could even make your own adjustments to this gift, by buying some decorative ribbon or glitter to make the bottle itself more attractive. Although what really matters is what’s written inside, of course.


Rather than buying couples coupons from a shop or online that may include things that you and your significant other are unable to do due to distance, maybe you could make your own? Writing your own coupons makes it more personal, and also more fun. However, if you know that you and your significant other are going to be seeing each other soon, perhaps buying a regular couples coupon book would still be a good gift, as it gives you both things to look forward to.

A video

Whether it’s a slideshow of pictures or videos of the two of you, or a video message recorded for your significant other, although this gift effectively costs you nothing, it requires an immense amount of effort, and – like the scrapbook idea – serves as a mini-project to distract you from the distance. You could play a song in the background that has some meaning to your relationship, making it more personal.

And if you happen to be particularly talented, perhaps you could incorporate this into your video. You could sing and/or write a song for your significant other, draw an animation for them or play an instrument for them. Using your talents to show them how much you love them is incredibly special, as they will no doubt be supportive of your talents already and will see the amount of effort that you have put in.


These can be bought on OpenWhenLetterShop’s Etsy shop

‘Open when’ envelopes

These are becoming increasingly popular online and are especially nice gifts to give in a long-distance relationship, as time zone differences may often mean that you are unable to always be there for your significant other. However, if they have access to your words when they are feeling upset or even when they want to celebrate something, then it can bring the two of you closer.

You can buy a selection of these envelopes to put your own letters in if you’re short of ideas, or write your own if you’re feeling more creative. It might be a nice idea to also put other things in the envelope with the letters, such as nice pictures or small gifts to cheer them up.

Here are some of my ideas for “open when” envelopes:

  • Open when you’re feeling sad.
  • Open when you’re missing me.
  • Open when you need to celebrate.
  • Open when you need to laugh.
  • Open when you’re bored.
  • Open when you’re feeling happy.
  • Open when you’re mad at me.
  • Open when you just want to talk.


Your favourite book

Although not an expensive gift, it can still be nice to share your favourite things with your significant other. Since you’re apart and can’t participate in your favourite activities and hobbies together, a nice idea would be to share things you enjoy with them in any way that you can. Sending them a copy of your favourite book is a very personal thing and will help you to learn more about each other. Perhaps you could even underline or point out your favourite quotes, or even reading the book together, a chapter a day and then discussing it with each other.

Other possible ideas:

  1. Personalised jewellery
  2. A dual time-zone necklace.
  3. A promise ring.
  4. A personalised jigsaw.
  5. A heartbeat or sound wave necklace/bracelet.
  6. A custom notebook.
  7. Get flowers delivered to their house.
  8. Name a star after them.
  9. A pair of matching/personalised mugs.
  10. A jar of love-notes.
  11. A mix CD.
  12. A collage.
  13. Mini love-letters.
  14. A custom phone case.
  15. A care package.


Anxiety in a Long Distance Relationship

The first thing anyone will ever tell you about long distance relationships is that they’re hard. And they’re not wrong, long distance is one of the biggest challenges a relationship can face, although it’s definitely becoming a lot easier with the technology available to us.With apps like Skype, Facebook and Snapchat, you can get in touch with your significant other as quickly and frequently as you’d like.

But – if you have anxiety, long distance probably just got a whole lot harder.

Before I started dating my boyfriend, I don’t think I really understood my anxiety, or even if I knew what it really was. But after the first seven months or so, it began to cause such a strain on our relationship, that I decided that in order for him to understand my anxiety, I had to first learn to understand it myself. So after two years of managing anxiety in a long distance relationship, here’s what I’ve learned.

This won’t apply to all types of long distance relationships, or even all types of anxiety – this is just what I’ve experienced.tumblr_nvcsasU6gO1ugddz5o1_1280

Understanding and explaining your anxiety

It’s important that your significant other understands how your anxiety works. It will help them know what to do and how to react when it flares up. A lot of people don’t fully understand what anxiety really is, even if they think they do. However, you can’t explain your anxiety well enough, if you don’t understand it yourself. Try to look at your anxiety from a different perspective, see if you can notice any patterns in your behaviour, or any triggers (be aware that there may be multiple). If you can understand how your anxiety works, then it will only make explaining it to your significant other easier. Everyone experiences anxiety differently, so make sure that your significant other understands how anxiety effects you as an individual – what your limitations are, and how severely it effects you. You don’t have to have this conversation straight away, but it’s in important step in communication.

(Maybe) lower your expectations

As much as they want to, your significant other may not always be able to be there for you. Time zones are an unfortunate factor in many long distance relationships, and can often mean that your significant other is unable to respond when you might need it most. Though that doesn’t mean that you have to deal with your anxiety alone. Family and friends can be just as helpful, you just need to figure out what makes you feel better and make sure that the people closest to you understand that as well so they can provide that for you.

Trust them

The most important factor in a long distance relationship is trust. Being unable to see your significant other for prolonged periods of time can put some pretty worried thoughts in your head – but if there’s one thing that you should always remember, it’s that they love you. Long distance relationships are hard, and if that person didn’t love you and wasn’t committed to you, then I guarantee that they wouldn’t be in the relationship in the first place. They want to do the best that they can for you, even despite the barriers between you when you’re apart.

Your friends and family are there to give advice – but it’s not fact

Going to friends and family for advice – especially when you’re anxious – is great. It can be incredibly helpful just to be able to talk it out with someone, especially if your significant other is struggling to help with your anxiety as much as they’d like to. But you have to remember that your friends and family are different people. They only see as much of your relationship as you let them, and so their advice might be a little bit misguided, especially if you only discuss your relationship when it’s a problem or a worry. While they might give great advice and make good points, they won’t always be right.

Be understanding

As much as you wish it didn’t, your anxiety will effect your significant other as well. They’ll probably feel like there’s a lot of pressure on them and that there’s not much they can do, so it might be a good idea to check in on them every once in a while. Even if you just occasionally send them a quick message about it and see if there’s anything either of you can do to make dealing with your anxiety easier for the both of you.

Every relationship is different

Comparing your relationship to others can be harmful. It can make your anxiety so much worse and make you worry unnecessarily. Every relationship is different, just like every person is different, as so comparing your relationship to someone else’s is pointless. Especially when you’re in a long distance relationship. Your relationship is going to be drastically different to those around you, and that doesn’t make it any less valid.

Another thing that’s important to remember is that no relationship is perfect. You may hear other people talking about their relationships and start wondering why yours isn’t more like that – but that won’t be the whole story. You only know as much about that relationship as they’re telling you, so everything might not be as it seems. And besides, there is no such thing as an “ideal” relationship. What may seem ideal to you can’t be said of everyone.

People show love in different ways (especially in an LDR)

Don’t be worried if your partner’s ways of showing affection are different than what you’re used to, or what you expected. Everybody has different ways of expressing their love, and when we don’t understand this, we tend to assume it isn’t there at all. But that’s not true. You just have to get used to the different ways in which your partner shows that they love you, even if they may not be immediately obvious.

Reason with yourself

If you haven’t heard from your partner for a few hours, or are beginning to worry about them, take a moment to just think to yourself. It’s so easy to start concocting impossible stories in your head, but you have to try to be realistic. Especially if you’re living in a different time-zone to your significant other. Consider the time and what it is that they might be doing. They could be at work, or spending time with family, or even just having a nap because they’re overtired. When you can’t see your significant other as often as you’d like, any time spent not talking becomes immediately noticeable, though it doesn’t always have to mean something bad.

Keep them updated

Your partner loves and cares about you, and if there’s something going on in your life, then they’ll want to know about it. Even just giving them semi-regular updates on your anxiety and how you’re coping with it will hugely benefit your relationship. It helps you stay in-tune with each other and makes sure that they know what to expect.


I still struggle with my anxiety on a day-to-day basis, although I like to think that I’m better at handling it now than I was before. Two years into my relationship I still get anxious thinking about these things, but I’ve found that it helps to be able to put my anxiety into perspective and understand how it effects me. You can’t find an immediate solution to your anxiety, but you can take small steps to understand and cope with it, and in many ways that’s just as important.